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Thursday, February 25, 2010

WE BOTH KNOW, I CAN GRAB YOU BACK.

YOU USED TO BE WITH ME.

YOU TOLD ME YOU'RE NOT SURE 'BOUT THE AFFAIR YOU'RE IN.
IF I DON'T KNOW YOU THIS MUCH, I WOULD JUST THINK YOU'RE BEING CHILDISH,
TO LET OTHERS (ESP. ME, OF ALL THE PEOPLE) KNOW YOU'RE, IN A WAY, UNSURE OF IT.

BUT BECAUSE YOU ONCE LET ME KNOW YOU,
I AM CERTAIN YOU WON'T GO FOR IT.

Monday, February 22, 2010

MICROBLOG.5 - SUNRISE

I DON'T GET TO ENJOY MORNING, REALLY.

YES, I MAKE USE OF IT AS A SEASON FOR HIBERNATION.

YET, I DO NOT BENEFIT FROM IT.

MORNING IS SUPPOSED TO BE A TIME TO BE PRODUCTIVE.

WELL, THAT'S WHAT'S IN MY MIND NOW.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

THE JUNCTION & MY 5 MILLION GRAND


FEB. 14, JUST MINUTES BEFORE FEB. 15.
I WAS DRIVING WHEN I CAME TO A FULL STOP.
THERE.
THERE AT THE INTERSECTION WHERE IT HAPPENED.
5 YEARS AGO.
AND I NEVER CROSSED TO THE OTHER SIDE.

DÉJÀ VU HAD ME IMMOBILIZED.
IT'S MORE LIKE FEAR.

I CAN'T THRUST THE BIKE TO LIFE.
I WASN'T ABLE TO TOUCH THE KEY FOR SECONDS.
THERE WAS SHORTNESS OF BREATH.
THERE WAS THIS COLD FEELING, SO I NEVER PERSPIRED.

THERE WAS A TRUCK... REALLY, THERE WAS A TRUCK COMING.
I LITERALLY STEPPED BACK SO I COULD MOVE MYSELF AND THE BIKE I WAS ON, FARTHER AWAY FROM WHERE I STOPPED SO I WONT GET HIT BY FEAR (OOPS..) THE TRUCK OR ANY OTHER VEHICLE THAT WAS APPROACHING.

AND THE HIGHWAY WAS CLEAR.

THE CHIMES OF 7 ELEVEN SOMEHOW SHOOK ME...
IT BROUGHT ME AND THE BIKE I WAS ON TO LIFE.
AND I WAS ABLE TO CROSS THAT JUNCTION.

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FEB. 15, 45 MINUTES BEFORE 12 MN.
I WAS THERE, AGAIN.
THERE BEFORE THE INTERSECTION WHERE IT HAPPENED.
5 YEARS AGO.
THE HIGHWAY WAS CLEAR, THOUGH.
YET I STILL CAME TO A FULL STOP.

I MUST.
TO MAKE SURE THAT NO TRUCK WAS APPROACHING.
NO TRIKE OR ANOTHER BIKE OR EVEN PEDESTRIAN.
THERE'S NO TINGLING SOUND FROM THE CONVENIENT STORE'S ENTRY.
JUST ME AND THE BIKE I WAS ON.

AND I WAS ABLE TO CROSS THAT JUNCTION AGAIN
(FROM MY HOME, TO THE OTHER SIDE,
WHERE ME AND THE BIKE I WAS ON
CRASHED DOWN THE ROAD , 5 MILLION YEARS AGO)

 

Monday, February 15, 2010

ZOMBIES ATE YOUR BRAIN!

WHY DO SOME PEOPLE OFTEN TRY TO READ OTHERS' MINDS,

WHEN THEY JUST FAIL TO DO SO ;)

Sunday, February 14, 2010

PROOF

YOU'RE ACCOUNTABLE FOR WHAT YOU DID.
& YES, I DID MY PART, TOO.
YOU NEED TO PROVE YOU CAN HANDLE THINGS IN A WAY YOU DON'T APPEAR THE VICTIM.
I AM NOT WORTHY TO BE LABELED "THE BAD ONE".

PROVE ME YOUR BETTER.
PROVE ME YOUR DIFFERENT.
NOT DIFFERENT ENOUGH TO BE INCONSISTENT.
WE BOTH INVESTED ON IT.

IT'S HARD.
TO ADMIT THAT I FEEL SAD
EVERYTIME YOU MAKE IT HARD FOR ME TO TRUST YOU.

YOU NEVER GET THE CHANCE TO READ MY BLOGS.
YOU NEVER READ MY MIND, EITHER. YOU NEVER WILL.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

TRANCE

THAT HUB SURELY IS SOMETHING TO GO BACK TO.
THE TRANCE EXHILARATED ME LIKE IT ALWAYS DOES.

WAY BACK 2004.
DARK.
THE CREATURES AND THE LIGHTS ARE PLAYFUL.
QUICK.
AND OUT OF CONTROL.

BADTRIP

Tuesday, February 09, 2010

SOMEONE BETTER

THE PAST MONTHS HAD NOT BEEN THAT GOOD; THINGS HADN'T BEEN TURNIN OUT WELL FOR ME.
AND I NEEDED SOMEONE TO CHEER ME UP. SOMEONE TO LIGHTEN UP MY DREARY SOUL.

AND SHE'S THERE. WAITING. SHOWING CARE AND APPRECIATION.

I DINT MEAN TO CAUSE HER CONFUSION. THAT'S THE LAST THING I WOULD DO (?) TO A SPECIAL ONE.

I ONCE MADE IT CLEAR.
"YOU DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER".

MICROBLOG.4 - SWITCH>>

THE INTERNAL STORM HAS FADED.
TURNING YOUR FOCUS ON PLEASURABLE THINGS HELP.. GREAT.

HOWEVER, I'M CERTAIN THAT WHIRLWIND STILL IS BOUND TO CRUSH ME SOME OTHER TIME.

Monday, February 08, 2010

MICROBLOG.3 - BURST

MY CHEST FEELS HEAVY.
SOMETHING IN IT WANTS TO EXPLODE.

DEPRESSION ATTACKS WHEN YOU LEAST EXPECT IT.
IT CREATES AN UNBEARABLE IMPACT.

Sunday, February 07, 2010

MICROBLOG.2 - DEFENSE

YEAH, I CONSIDERED HIS PLEA FOR UNDERSTANDING  AND HIS DEFENSE.


BUT SHOULD I CONTINUE CONSIDERING SOMEONE IN NEED OF UNDERSTANDING,
WHEN ALL HE WANNA SEE IS CONFLICT AND NOTHING ELSE?

MICROBLOG.1 - SORRY

I JUST WROTE A SORRY LETTER. SORRY FOR NOT GIVING MY BEST WHEN IT COMES TO MY WORK. 

COZ I KNOW THERE'S A PART OF MY JOB I SHOULD NOT ALWAYS TAKE SERIOUSLY. 

I HID IT SOMEWHERE IN THE OFFICE.

Saturday, February 06, 2010

WHY NOT TALK ABOUT IT?



YOURSELF. YOUR BODY. YOUR MIND. YOUR SOUL.
YOUR GREATEST FRIEND.
YOUR GREATEST ENEMY.
YOURSELF.

YOU ARE SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE WIT VIEWS DIFFERENT FROM YOURS.
YOU MAY BE WITH A CERTAIN GROUP OF PEOPLE
BUT YOU MAY NOT HAVE ENTERED THEIR LIVES.
YOU MAY BE BOTHERED BY THEIR ACTIONS,
BECAUSE YOU EXPECT THEM TO ACT ACCDG TO YOUR VALUES.

PUT IN MIND THAT YOUR VALUES MAY NOT BE SIGNIFICANT TO THEM.
YOU NEVER ALWAYS CROSS THEIR MINDS,SO THEY MAY NOT MEAN TO CAUSE YOU WORRY.

LEARN THAT YOUR MIND IS YOUR GREATEST ENEMY.
IT'S ALL IN YOUR MIND.
ALL THE REGRETS, ALL THE HURT.

YOUR MIND INSTILLS DOUBT.
YOU BECOME TAMED TO MEASURE PEOPLE'S SINCERITY.
YOUR REAL FRIENDS BECOME YOUR FOE.
THEIR EVERY MOVE, THEIR SYMPATHY, BECOME ATTACKS.
YOUR MIND INSTRUCTS YOU TO GET YOURSELF READY AGAINST SOMEONE'S ATTACK.

IN THE END, THE ENEMY, YOUR MIND,
TELLS YOU THAT ALL THE FLAWS YOU COMMITTED
ARE JUST PART OF YOUR HUMAN EXPERIENCE.
IT BECOMES A FRIEND, WHO, THEN, ASSURES YOU
THAT THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU ARE THE REAL ENEMIES.

YOUR MIND WINS OVER YOUR VALUES.