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Monday, January 13, 2014

BROKEN

I AM BROKE.
IT JUST FELL ON ME THAT IN TWO YEARS TIME I'LL BE THREE DECADES OLD. THAT I DONT HAVE ANY SAVINGS, BUT CRAP. I AM NOT GROWING UP. I AM ACADEMICALLY BROKE. I AM FINANCIALLY ILLITERATE, THAT I CAN HARDLY FEED MYSELF. AND EARN FOR MY FAMILY.
I EVEN GOT MYSELF A NASTY HABIT WHICH WORSENED, GIVING ME NO PEACE OF MIND, AND IT'S DESTRUCTIVE.

I AM BROKEN. 
THAT MY DREAMS ARE DISTANT. 
AND IM STUCK HERE INCAPABLE OF STEPPIN TOWRDS THEM. 
I AM FAR BEHIND SOME OF MY SUCCESSFUL BATCHMATES, AND ALL I CAN DO IS DAY DREAM THAT IN AN INSTANT, MY LIFE WILL BE BETTER. 

I NEED A BREAK. 
BUT WHENEVER I DESIRE TO PONDER ON THE THINGS I NEED TO DO IN LIFE, MY MIND GETS FILLED WITH OTHER THINGS THAT NEEDED TO GET DONE. 
I AM A LABORER. I AM A SUBORDINATE. I FOLLOW ALMOST EVERYONE'S COMMAND (WELL, SOMETIMES I GET TO CHOOSE WHOM TO FOLLOW LAST). 

BUT I CAN'T BREAKAWAY. 
I AM NOT JUST HOURS BEHIND. 
I AM LEFT BEHIND. 
WITH THE LIABILITIES PILING UP, I CANT MANAGE TO MOVE ON. 
I AM A MESS. 
I AM NOT EXEMPLAR. 
I AM STUCK. 
I AM WAY TOO LOW. 
I AM ERRONEOUS. 
I AM RUBBISH. 

MY FAITH IS PRESENT,
BUT MY PSYCHE DOES SO MANY THINGS AGAINST IT. 


Thursday, January 02, 2014

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2014 ANOTHER YEAR WHICH FOR EVERYONE BRINGS A NEW HOPE TO START THINGS A NEW. FOR SOME THIS TRANSITION IS A MORE DRAMATIC AND MORE RATIONAL TIME TO DO BETTER IN LIFE.

BUT THIS NEW YEAR BEING MERELY A SHIFT IN YEAR AND JUST A DAY AFTER DECEMBER 31, 2013 MAKES ME REALIZE THAT IT'S JUST LIKE A DAY AFTER A DAY.
IT STILL BRINGS WITH IT THE CONSEQUENCES OF YOUR ACTIONS IN 2013. AND THAT WOULD GIVE ONE A TOUGH TIME TO MOVE ON. 

IT'S NEVER AN INSTANT CHANGE.
IT'S NEVER A MAGICAL TURNING POINT THROUGH WHICH ONE CAN EASILY ESCAPE THE HANGUPS CAUSED BY HIS MISDEEDS. 

THOUGH SOME PEOPLE MAY IN A SNAP WEAR A NEW IMAGE AND FLUNT AN ABRUPT CHANGE IN ATTITUDE, WE MUST PUT IN MIND THAT FOR SOME, NO FUNNY RESOLUTIONS CAN BETTER BE PUT IN PLACE OF REALITY. 

REAL TALK: 

YOU CANNOT STRUT A NEW SELF AND MAKE PEOPLE BELIEVE YOU'RE A TOTALLY DIFFERENT CREATURE. 

YOU CANNOT EXPECT PEOPLE TO JUST FORGET THE MISFORTUNE YOU CAUSED THEM, EVEN YOU SAID THE RIGHT WORDS. 

JUST DONT MAKE IT HARD FOR PEOPLE TO DEAL WITH THE NEWER VERSION OF YOURSELF. IT'S NOT JUST ABOUT YOU AND HOW YOU WILL SURVIVE THIS YEAR. IT'S A WHOLE COMMUNITY, A NATION THAT IS EYEING FOR A NICER YEAR AHEAD. KEEP IN MIND THAT EVERYONE WANTS A GOOD, TROUBLE FREE YEAR. 

MAKE IT EASY. TAKE IT EASY.

WISH:

MAY WE ALL POSSESS LOVE & WISDOM AND ENJOY GOOD HEALTH, GOOD FORTUNE & SAFETY THIS 2014.