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Monday, March 31, 2014

DERELICT

I HAD FOUR HOURS OF SLEEP EARLIER THIS MORNING.
NOT ENOUGH TO KEEP ME STAYIN UP THIS LATE.
AND IT WAS NOT FOUR HOURS STRAIGHT.
MY THOUGHTS ARE NOT SO FAR JAMMED UP, 
AND I AM SURE THAT AT WORK, I NEVER COMMITTED A MISTAKE CAUSED BY INSUFFICIENT SLEEP. 
THIS IS DEJA VU TO ME.
FIVE YEARS AGO I THINK I WAS IN THIS EXACT STATE OF SELF.
I LACKED SLEEP. I WORKED. LET THE DAY PASS WITH NO MISTAKE AT ALL.
I WAS CERTAINLY FEELING NOTHING. 
NOT A THING TO MAKE ME FEEL SATISFIED WITH MY STATUS. 
THERE WASN'T A THING CONCRETE ENOUGH TO MAKE ME EAGER 
TO WITNESS THE FUTURE WITH EXCITEMENT. 

NO PURE POSITIVITY. BETTER PUT IT AS POOR POSITIVITY.
OPTIMISM AND CONFIDENCE. ALL THAT NOW. DERELICT.